Ben Affleck is striving to maintain his household with each other, although he and his ex-wife, Jennifer Garner, separated in 2018.
The Oscar-winning actor/director, 47, took a seat with Diane Sawyer for a tell-all meeting throughout which he opened regarding his have problem with soberness, being a father, and also his public split from the starlet.
After the meeting broadcast on “Good Morning, America!”, Affleck had Sawyer checked out a public letter from Affleck to Garner. “What I want to say publicly and privately is, ‘Thank you. Thank you for being thoughtful, considerate, responsible, and a great mom and person,’” Sawyer, 74, read.
During the psychological meeting, Affleck confessed he never desired his marital relationship to finish in separation and also called the experience “painful.”
“I didn’t want to get divorced, I didn’t want to be a divorced person, I didn’t want to be a split family with my children,” he stated. “It upset me because it meant I wasn’t who I thought I was, and that was so painful and so disappointing. In myself.”
.@GMA EXCLUSIVE: “I really don’t want my children to pay for my sins.” @BenAffleck opens up to @dianesawyer about his sobriety battle and how his dad’s addiction to alcohol taught him “how important it is for me to be sober.” pic.twitter.com/phEcgY906q
— Good Morning America (@GMA) February 20, 2020
Affleck admitted he started consuming alcohol greatly at a young age, and also, his father likewise was an alcoholic. “I started to drink every day. I’d come home from work and drink until I passed out on the couch,” he stated.
The “Argo” celebrity had become part of rehab several times, including his newest job in 2018, and also really feels now in his life, “I don’t have any more room for failure of that kind.”
“I have to be the man I want to be at this point,” he stated, mentioning his youngsters. Garner and Affleck have three youngsters with each other: Violet, 14, Seraphina, 11, and even Samuel, 7.
“I don’t want my children to pay for my sins or to be afraid for me, which is one of the hard parts of being the child of an alcoholic,” Affleck mirrored.
“If your child is suffering something that’s a level of pain that is just not easily gotten past, not easily forgotten, not easily forgiven. It’s hard. You’re not going to avoid causing your kids pain — all pain — pain is part of life,” he proceeded. “I take some comfort in that I’m doing my very, very best, and I hope that that is, you know, has to be good enough.”
Affleck formerly talked to the New York Times while doing press for his upcoming motion picture “The Way Back,” in which he plays an alcoholic attempting to place his life back with each other once again.
“People with compulsive behavior, and I am one, have this kind of basic discomfort all the time that they’re trying to make go away,” Affleck told the outlet. “You’re trying to make yourself feel better with eating or drinking or sex or gambling or shopping or whatever. But that ends up making your life worse. Then you do more of it to make that discomfort go away. Then the real pain starts. It becomes a vicious cycle you can’t break.”
He included: “That’s a minimum of what took place to me.”
Affleck remembered that he “drank relatively normally” for the majority of his marital relationship. But in 2015 or 2016, as concerns started to bubble up in the connection, he began to consume even more greatly, which “created more marital problems.”
“The biggest regret of my life is this divorce,” exposed Affleck. He discussed that while he still really feels a sense of guilt over the split, he’s relocated past the pity…
“Shame is toxic. There is no positive byproduct of shame,” he said. “It’s just stewing in a toxic, hideous feeling of low self-worth and self-loathing.”